You wake up one morning, motivated to get through the day only to see your school crush. Once you get to school, you’re excited to see their face. As soon as you walk by them, you feel nothing. No excitement and no joy, which leaves you wondering, “What is wrong with me?”
Having a school crush is something that keeps people motivated to go to school. It is an enjoyable feeling to know there is someone that you can create your own image about and admire from afar. The delusion of having a crush may last a long time, but what happens when the illusion wears off?
Waking up from your fantasy is like a slap to the face. You think about all the things you may have said or done while you were “in love.”
UACHS senior, Samantha Bautista, reflects on how being delusional about someone was a waste of her time and energy.
“Due to my delusions, I was building my own perspective of this person because I wanted them to be like that, but in reality, they were the polar opposite, which ruined them for me.”
Having friends who encouraged your delusion makes you realize how crazy you were for this person.
While you thought you were thinking logically during that particular era, listening to your friends tell you all the illogical things you’ve done makes you wonder why you were even crazy for this person in the first place.
UACHS junior, Tatiana Maldonado believes that delusions and false narratives tend to be projected onto the person being spoken about, leading to a false image.
“I noticed that I created a false perception of a person based on the things my friends were telling me, ” said Maldonado. “It never allowed me to see things clearly until reality hit me sooner or later, and I realized later on that all the “loving” actions this person was doing for me were just normal behavior that I had romanticized.”
Once the delusion wears off, you may see some things about the person that you should have seen a long time ago. They may have some personality flaws that may not align with what you want in a significant other, or they might not be as conventionally attractive to you as you thought.
While being delusional about someone is fun, waking up from those delusions isn’t. It’s time to say goodnight to the delusions and good morning to the new and improved self-aware you.
